You are maintaining peace between two conflicting forces/ideas. Stop looking at the options and instead look for a third option that gives you peace of mind. Look for long term impact of your behavior of your actions while managing relationships. Take care of your eyes. Pregnant women who are confused between two birthing options(natural versus c-section) are advised to avoid doing too much research and exhausting yourself. Instead, relax and consult your doctor. White is the color of the day.